Since that incident after McCollins birthday party I can’t stop myself from thinking about Sky although Brandon is officially my boyfriend now but it looks like everything seems out of place. It’s been four months since Brandon and I are dating but there’s nothing much of event inside our relationship. It seems that the level of our friendship is nothing to compare to what we are right now, it seems similar maybe the little difference it makes is that he’s doing his best and he’s trying extra hard to make things work for the both of us, our relationship together looks good from the outside little did they know I have some unresolved issues inside my heart. The wound Sky left me is still present, I’m hoping a scar would be left hanging in there but I can see to it that it is still fresh and I don’t have any idea what to do about it.
As I was walking home one day I saw a car unfamiliar outside my unit door and there’s a man leaning on it. In order not to get into any trouble I tried to avoid where the person was standing and walked at the back where he is facing, I thought I will not be found but my keys started to make some noise and made him turn and saw me.
“Hello there, Miss!” He smiled friendly unto me.
“Yes? How can I help you?” I smiled shyly, i didn’t have any choice but to face him, just to be polite.
“Do you know someone named Addison, Heather from here?” He asked.
“I’m afraid that’s me. Why?” The moment I heard my name, the expression in my face turned to full curiosity.
“I was send to take you somewhere.”
“Who send you?”
“This is a letter from the one who sent me.”
I was hesitant to take it, but since I’m curious I took it away and opened it.
Dearest Addi Heather Addison
I hope this letter would get to you, I have a lot of things I wanted to say. Let’s get reconciled and I won’t bother you anymore. My brother will be bringing you somewhere we can talk.
I hope I can meet you there. With all sincerity, Sky.
I can’t believe what I am reading right now, I feel like my heart was beating three times faster than normal. I didn’t imagine Sky would dare to make such grand gesture like this. I know to myself that in some ways or another we have to talk eventually in order to finish the things that are unsettled. If now is the time for it, then I am decided to go.
“OK. I’ll go with you but first give me some time to change.” I told Sky’s brother. I didn’t know he has a brother. Well they both look handsome.
After a few minutes of changing my uniform to clothes that are presentable to wear, we went off to where Sky was waiting for us. My mind is full of thoughts again, there’s a lot of things I wanted to say to him and there’s also the things I wanted to know about him. I don’t think I can give him a chance, now that I am already committed to Brandon but I am greatly hoping that there would be a peaceful conversation for the both of us tonight.
After some time of thinking, I turn my head to the car window and watch the road where we are going, the car that I was riding went inside an overview park. It was night time and the sky was so dark, it seems that the stars and the moon are not that supportive for this event to happen. I went out of the car.
“Thank you Miss Heather for coming here tonight, I hope that you will have a great time.” Told Sky’s brother.
“Is this the way?” I asked him.
“Yes just follow the path walk, he’s there waiting for you.”
He said smiling and enthusiastic.
The place makes me feel overwhelmed. It’s a restaurant on top of the hill and you can see the city lights from below. Sky set up the place in the garden where only the both of us can talk. There were candles lighted everywhere and a soft instrumental music was playing in the background. Just what I said earlier, this is such a grand gesture and I feel ashamed to think that I am actually enjoying it. I feel unfaithful to Brandon by being here. I have to tell him everything when this night is over.
“Good evening milady. I am grateful that you made it here safe. I hope you’d enjoy the evening.” Sky greeted me with his nicest and perfect smile.
“I didn’t expect this.” I told him while sitting on the seat he pulled out for me.
“I hope I have exceeded your expectations. You may be wondering a lot why I made this night special, I wanted to tell a lot of things to you but before anything else let us enjoy the dinner first.” Sky stated and signaled the waiter to start serving the food.
I am impressed. The food was lovely to eat, I enjoyed the steak and the dessert that was served. It was a stress reliever. And I think I would love to have more after my conversation with Sky, I’m actually getting nervous because I don’t know what he is going to tell me and I need to have a concrete answer now if ever he’s going to ask me about anything.
“Addi? Did you enjoy the food?” Sky asked warmly.
“Y-yes it is perfectly cooked. I love it.” I said.
“Good to know you’re enjoying your time. Would you like to have some wine?” Sky asked politely.
After he poured the wine he started talking.
“First of all, I wanted to thank you Addi for coming here. I already told you that earlier but I am grateful that you’re here.” He started talking.
“You’re welcome Sky. I think we also need to talk. There’s something that I would like to tell you as.” I told him.
“You do? Alright what is it?” He asked interestedly.
“No, you should tell me what you have t say first.” I said.
“Oh okay then I’m going to start now.”
“Go ahead.” I smiled. Trying to lift up the mood.
“Heather I just want you to know that since I saw you that night when you first entered my restaurant I knew to myself that I have loved you since then.”
I remained still and eager to listen. I don’t know yet what to respond to his confession.
“I would like to apologize about your dress being showered by the glass of water, it was me who made it happen, so that I could come to your table and have to encounter talking to you again.” He said shyly.
“What? You did that? Why would you do that?” I was surprised.
“Of course to find a way to talk to you, and I’m so sorry. Honestly I already knew that you have been studying here in Richmond since day one of your medicine student life. Clark told me. I just didn’t want to disturb you that is why I never came to show myself to you. There are actually times that I see you around the campus but I’m not stalking you alright. It’s just that I have been withholding myself because I know it is not yet the time for me to tell everything to you.”
I remained still although my heart is obviously beating faster than the normal, I cannot believe this is happening.
“I said to myself that I will only come and talk to you when I already have established something, not to prove to you that I can make it but to show to you that you have been my inspiration to make it happen. And the “Green House” is the fruit of it. You have inspired me Heather, in ways you never imagined. You have made me do my best in working hard and in keeping myself preserve. During the night that you went to my restaurant for a birthday celebration I was so glad to see you there but when I heard that you were dating Brandon it crushed me. I never thought that you could be taken away from me. I was hoping that you have still feelings for me as I am to you, but the news about you being in a relationship made me realize that I didn’t have given so much effort and making it known to you, my feelings. And I cannot blame you for that and I am sorry for not doing so much.”
I saw Sky’s face, he was pouring out his heart and it is obvious that he’s trying to be more courageous in speaking it all out. I keep listening to him.
“I am sorry if I have hurt you in the past. I am sorry if I am too late doing all of these things. I know that you have Brandon with you now and I do not wish to break you off with him. I am not asking for you to be with me for I wanted to respect your decisions. As long as you are joyful and contented with Brandon then I will be to you also. I just want you to know that I have love you since I came to know you Heather. And I don’t know when this will go away, but rest assured after this confession I will no longer bother you. I send you off in peace and may you live in joy, with grace and love.”
And after he said that, he breathe so deep, so deep that his tears went back inside his lacrimal glands. He’s trying not to cry but all of the things he told me, it was all that I have been meaning to hear a long time ago. It was just so sad that I have already given my commitment to someone and I cannot take it back, it would break Brandon’s heart.
Sky is waiting for me to tell something, but I couldn’t find the exact words to tell him what I feel it seems that everything I wanted to tell him before was all forgotten because of what he told me. I seated there in front of him, looking straight into his eyes and tears fall down in my face. I cried. The moment was so sad.
I was crying because I couldn’t undo the time when I said yes to Brandon. I was crying because this is Sky, my first love, and the one I have been dreaming of to be with me as long as I live. This is him telling me this things that only in my dreams I could hear, but right now I am living in reality. I am so sad that our story has to end this way. Indeed it is never healthy to invest emotionally to a person you are still uncertain with. You’ll never know what lies ahead of you, it is only the Creator that knows and what we have to do is to keep trusting God in all our ways and decisions and I believe there is a reason why I already made my decision.
After some moment of tears and silent gazes, I took the initiative to break the ice. I started talking.
“I am surprise Sky with all of these revelations you just told me. I never expected you would do all of those things. I adore your honesty that you said all of these truths to me. I know that there is no longer any point for me to tell to you how much I long to hear those words a long time ago. I thought to myself that you never cared. That it was all purely friendship and you might just see me as your little sister or something like that.” I breathed some air.
He was just there eager to listen for the things that I have to say.
“I also felt important and loved knowing that you have made me your inspiration to make yourself reach success. I respect your loving kindness. And I would like to thank you for loving me the way I wanted you to. And I have forgiven you from hurting me and making me wait in the past. If I could turn the days where I said yes to Brandon I will still say yes to him. I will still choose him, I’m sorry If I have to tell you this Sky but it was God’s divine intervention that we didn’t end up together. I believe that all things work together for good and we may have the kind of feeling and affection to each other but I do believe it was all in the past; for me it is all in the past. Since I started dating Brandon I am really trying my best to reciprocate every efforts he has been showing me. It was him that made me feel like a woman and I cannot blame you for these things that have happen because I myself have turned out into something different. I was full of resentment back to you because you left me hanging. I do not want to regret anymore because things are already done and we cannot undo it. Maybe this is just our story. The kind of love that is different from the other. You will still be the Sky that is very important and very special to me but it won’t be the same anymore. I honor your honesty and I honor the gift of friendship. Thank you for respecting my decision Sky. I hope that you will find someone better than I do.”
I told him straight in his eyes. And he was looking back at me, words cannot express the meaningful gaze in his eyes, he wanted to say some things to stop me but I saw that he understood what I sincerely meant.
It was so sad but this has to end this way. The mistake here is that it was all wrong from the very beginning, we started so wrong yet we decline to accept that fact and continued indulging to the deceptive feelings which lead to years of being imprisoned to one another. Indeed we cannot perfect love it is love that makes us perfect.